Feeling Good

Although I haven't found happiness yet, I am finally out of my depressive state. I got my drive back and now I have a renewed PASSION for success. I feel like I am on top of the world at this moment in time.

Fried Rice

So today was an uneventful day. I woke up early in the morning and fell back asleep on the couch watching cartoons. My highlight of today was that I learned to make fried rice with an american spin to it. It was actually pretty good for my first time making it.

Cross Roads

So yesterday was an interview to determine my future. My future was determined by two people one was very outgoing and the other was dull as hell. I am pretty sure I won my first interview but my second interview was the downfall. Why the hell would they make him interview me, he was not outgoing there was no flow to the questions. Isn't it funny that your life can be determined at that one instance. However, this does not end my career right then and now but it shattered some dreams and it got me thinking can I handle the real world or should I take the easy way out and quit. So I am not at the cross roads thinking about my future I could try again and again and hopefully adjust and achieve my goal to prove people wrong and that I am cut out for that job. I will prove them wrong and I am coming back harder than harder and tougher than tough nothing is gonna slow me down.

Mistake

So yesterday me and my friends went out to the bars. To tell you the truth I had the time of my life. Usually when I hate the bars but this time it was different. My friend was being a jackass introduced me to some random girl. At first I hate meeting people at bars but I had no choice she took my hand and we headed to the dance floor. We danced all night long and we had that physical attraction to one another but however me being stupid and inexperienced at picking up girls blew it. I knew she was into me as we danced most of the night away but at the end of the night when I asked for her number she responded with "do you have facebook?" (ouch..) So long story short I did not get her number. I knew I blew the chance. There were so many signals that she gave me but I never acted on it. My first mistake is the lack of conversation. This was due to my dislike of conversation at the bars. I hate talking since we are on the dance floor. The second mistake is that I should of bought her a drink. My last mistake was not making a move and showed her interest. My third mistake was the biggest mistake. As we grinded on the dance, feeling each other's body with the sweet smell of pheromones she slowly tilted her head back and closed her eyes with the hope of me sweeping aside her hair to slowly kiss her neck but however me being stupid I did not do it as this scenario came up 2 or 3 more times.

Meaning of LIFE

Many people ask this question. Well I think the meaning of life is to be happy. So the question now is what is happiness? I have lately been asking this question myself. As you know I grew up in a loving family and have many caring friends. I could not have asked for a better life as my parents worked so hard to give me a better life. I was raised from rags to riches. To many people, it looks like I have a perfect life but in reality I hide my sorrow. What is happiness to me is to have someone to love and to have someone love you back. Not many people know that I am envious of my friends, seeing them being happy.

Hi and Welcome

Hi and welcome to my blog. This blog is a diary of my life. To start, a little bit about me. I grew up in a small town in Canada. I was mainly raised by my grandma while my parents worked to give me a better life than them. This year I just turned 24 and currently pursing a diploma in business . From an outsiders view people think I live the life and I am not gonna deny it either. I have been blessed by growing up in a loving family and having caring friends who are always there for me.